ARRRRRGH!

[crowsrlaughin]

*rips hair out* OkI don't know WHAT the hell to think.

I was blewn off Friday, yeah, my friend never picked me up. I waited up till 4 am, no call, no text, no nothing. It pissed me the hell off.

So I waited and waited saturday for a call. NOTHING. I talked to Samn about she agreed that this game has taken over FULL force, and Alara went out on another date with creepy 40 year old guy. Who was hitting on my mom on the game, and asking her where she lived, and if I would mind if they met. (doesnt know that she is my mom) Im like dude, back the hell off my mother before I stomp you.

Not only that I had a guild and Alara knows my account password, she went on my account made her guild leader and kicked me down to member, and then left it like that, told me it was to boot someone out of the guild. Um no, why didnt you just use MY account then? Anyways that didn't bug me I just gave her the guild and left.

What bothers me is her attitude this weekend. Saturday she didn't even bother to call me or anything. Then I saw her AIM and told her to call Samn she did. She told Samn she was gonna call me about picking me up saturday night, she never called me or samn back. Never picked me up, she hid on aim under invisable till I told samn about it. She asked if she ever planned on telling me, and she said no.

That just bugged me out, I love her to pieces, and she is one of my best friends, and if shes going through a funky time I wish she'd talk to me, but even so she can be considerate of me. I know I can't pay her gas money or buy her nice things, cause I'm broke as a joke, but I would, and I care. I just wish she let me in...

[Pixie]

honey I am only beginning to know you and I feel very blessed you are in my life.....but from what I can see she is just using you and she seems to enjoy her ability to take advantage of you and then make you feel guilty over your "supposed" neglect of her-and you deserve so much better*hugs tightly* I am here for you whenever you need me

[Serena Serenity]

*nods* I agree with Pix all the way there. Something isn't right about that. I've known you for how long now? Though I'm pretty sure you haven't figured out who this is yet. You're a good person hun and I'm happy to have you about. It sounds like she couldn't care less until she wanted, or needed something from you. I don't know though. I don't know her there for I can't pass a judgement call on her.

[crowsrlaughin]

I'm not sure if I'm just reading into nuts or it's happening. I don't want to lose her, shes one of my best and closest friends I have IRL besides Samntron. I don't know what to do anymore... *hugs* thanks sweets.

Sometimes I just wonder if maybe I'M taking things out of context. But I want to blame it on this stupid game and that creepy old guy, cause it seems logical. And I don't want the problem to be her.

[Serena Serenity]

*snugs* I'm sure it will all come into focus hun. Don't worry.

[crowsrlaughin]

Unfortunally thats the ONE thing I'm good at, worrying! LOL, I'm a huge worry wart, all I do is worry, acts well with my insomnia lol. *ss*

[PandieCandii]

~*~this reply has been deleated by Candii-Lynn~*~

[crowsrlaughin]

Mmmm I don't know about that. I have never hurt any of my friends during my depression stage, not her. Not ever. When I'm depressed I don't show anyone around me, then I go home, and board myself in. Honestly I can't think of a time I hurt her because of my depression. We don't really ever fight, ever, we never snap at each other for too long. 2 minutes we'll be snippy then we're back to making fun of other people.

So I dont know. I can't think of any time that I hurt her expect for the one time earlier this week when I said something about her telling people behind my back that I said it was okay for her to be guild leader when I DIDN"T, and go behinid my back to do so. But like I said, I could be taking this a little bit out of hand. I just wish she would talk to me about it, thats WHY I'm her friend, because I care. She knows that, I just don't know how to tell her that. She's a lot more of a stronger, bigger, smarter person than I am. Sometimes I feel out of place, and rank to say anything of the accorcd. She just always has her shit together, and I'm used to not having my shit to gether. I don't know, but your words are just as appriecated.

[Serena Serenity]

*reads over Pandie's post, then nods* Yeah, true. Sorry, I think my PMS is talking for me. Then again, I can be irritable when in pain. lol Which I am in. I appologise for jumping the gun alittle.

[crowsrlaughin]

Usually if she's feeling funky she just hangs out at home, I understand that's fine and dandy, but never was she inconsiderate of me or samn. Samn more than anyone, I don't give a crap how I'm treated but, I'm not so much mad at her as confused about it.

I'm just worried if anything. I'm sure it'll blow over in time, once she talks to me.

[Serena Serenity]

It will all work out hun. *snugs* You'll see. Everything always does. One way or another.