Post by The gunslinger on Nov 3, 2005 1:44:25 GMT -5
Its been a few years since I've moved to Florida, giving up pretty much everything I owned and shedding myself of the dust of a former life. For once, I was truely happy, and I was able to stretch my long repressed emotions, but that, of course, brought its own problems.
I grew up in a city, and now I was here in the middle of the nowhere trying to start again. I became lonely, depressed much of the time, and then I attached to the internet. I managed to find comfort from the people there, but at the same time, I crippled my ability to have a social life. I had a girlfriend at one point, but I pretty much ignored her because I was too busy dealing with myself. Needless to say, things went sour between us pretty quickly.
Even so, I finally managed to form a small group of friends. Sure, they weren't the kind that would take a bullet for me, but we laughed and enjoyed each other's company, and that was enough. With school, I managed to piece together some form of a social life.
But then, as all things must, school ended, we graduated. Terry moved to Orlando, Dewey went into the military and everyone else just went thier seperate ways. Except one, Mr. Ernest J. Bishop, heh. He lives only a skip and a hop from me, and we stuck to each other like glue even after school ended. Hell, we even got jobs in the same place.
Recently though, we've been growing apart from each other. I guess it started over a little problem we had because I bought him a new PlayStation 2 for his birthday in September, and he's gotten me... diddly squat. I was hurt, sure, who wouldn't be? He knew when my birthday was, and even had the money to get me a present.... He doesn't come over to hang out anymore, he basically uses my internet or something, then runs off. He's lost his job now, so I don't even see him at work.
Maybe I'm overreacting about this stuff, but he's pretty much the last friend I got in this area, and I don't want to be alone again... it was hard enough getting through that first year or so. Also, I've noticed I've been spending more time on the internet lately, I'm worried about becoming dependent again. Sure, nothing's that bad about it, and I care about the people, but sometimes the drama is more than I can take.
Please... just someone tell me I'm overreacting or something....
I grew up in a city, and now I was here in the middle of the nowhere trying to start again. I became lonely, depressed much of the time, and then I attached to the internet. I managed to find comfort from the people there, but at the same time, I crippled my ability to have a social life. I had a girlfriend at one point, but I pretty much ignored her because I was too busy dealing with myself. Needless to say, things went sour between us pretty quickly.
Even so, I finally managed to form a small group of friends. Sure, they weren't the kind that would take a bullet for me, but we laughed and enjoyed each other's company, and that was enough. With school, I managed to piece together some form of a social life.
But then, as all things must, school ended, we graduated. Terry moved to Orlando, Dewey went into the military and everyone else just went thier seperate ways. Except one, Mr. Ernest J. Bishop, heh. He lives only a skip and a hop from me, and we stuck to each other like glue even after school ended. Hell, we even got jobs in the same place.
Recently though, we've been growing apart from each other. I guess it started over a little problem we had because I bought him a new PlayStation 2 for his birthday in September, and he's gotten me... diddly squat. I was hurt, sure, who wouldn't be? He knew when my birthday was, and even had the money to get me a present.... He doesn't come over to hang out anymore, he basically uses my internet or something, then runs off. He's lost his job now, so I don't even see him at work.
Maybe I'm overreacting about this stuff, but he's pretty much the last friend I got in this area, and I don't want to be alone again... it was hard enough getting through that first year or so. Also, I've noticed I've been spending more time on the internet lately, I'm worried about becoming dependent again. Sure, nothing's that bad about it, and I care about the people, but sometimes the drama is more than I can take.
Please... just someone tell me I'm overreacting or something....
