crowsrlaughin
Starbound Butterfly
.Welcome to the Machine.
Posts: 155
|
Post by crowsrlaughin on Oct 28, 2005 2:59:54 GMT -5
ARGH WHAT AM I DOING?!
Honestly I think I have some short ass tempers. I mean anything can like get me in the mood to curb stomb something. I mean and stuff like online shit even bother me. Maybe thats my fault but I play into everything. Dipping my fingers into the truffle.
If that isnt enough this hole shit going on with my friend. I feel like shes pushing me aside for a video game. She quit her job, and I'm afraid it was for hte game. NOT to mention shes just not acting the same. She didn't pick my friend up for work, didn't even call. She doesnt sleep, she just plays and plays. And now she went down to this 36 year olds house that she meant on the game. And I'm just worried about her. But I CANT say anything, cause I HATE confronting people, leads to nothing but shit.
I don't need anymore shit.
*sighs* Did you ever just get tired of feeling outcasted? The black sheep among BLACk sheep. Like as much as you try to fit in, just.. you can't. I don't know. I'm just feeling kind of crappy right now. So many emotions and I don't know what to dow ith them.
I'm depressed, I'm lonely, I'm angry, I'm anxeious, I'm worried, I'm nervous...
I don't know. Lost really. Like a gold fish in a bowl, swimming in circles cause I forgot what I was doing to begin with. (if that makes any sense.) I still need a damn job. But theirs nothing here, and my mothers boyfriend just keeps NAGGING AND NAGGING. And salting my cuts, like "Oh if YOU HAD MONEY..." or "Oh if YOU HAD A REAL JOB..." like dude get the hell off my back before I kick you in the thorax. UGH, fustrating as hell lemme tell you. I'm too freakin' old to deal with this middle school crap.
AND I STILL Havent put the sheets back onto my bed... *shakes head* Aaa. Sometimes I wonder if I've gone slightly mad and I just haven't reliazed yet. [/size]
|
|
Pixie
Starbound Butterfly
faith and trust and pixie dust
Posts: 335
|
Post by Pixie on Oct 28, 2005 3:08:04 GMT -5
*offers shy pixie hugs as she has no answers*
|
|
crowsrlaughin
Starbound Butterfly
.Welcome to the Machine.
Posts: 155
|
Post by crowsrlaughin on Oct 28, 2005 4:10:57 GMT -5
I'll take a pixie hug anyday. Thanks hon. Just exhausting. *hugs*
|
|
Hallie
Starbound Butterfly
Life's Oxymoron
Posts: 205
|
Post by Hallie on Oct 28, 2005 4:47:11 GMT -5
Well babydoll, you already know most of my thoughts on this. We've been talking in messengers most of the night.
Your short temper is something that only you can get in control of... The only thing I can suggest there is possibly anger management classes. Then again, I would know of a few reasons that you personally wouldn't, so as with everything, I'll not push the issue.
And we had a very long talk about your outcast feelings. I'm just sorry that I can't help more than I already have. You know that I'm here if you need me.
As for your friend... that is definately unhealthy behavior, but she's considered an adult after her 18th birthday... So there's nothing you -can- do other than confront her about her new addiction... or see about getting one of your mutual friends to do it since you have the confrontation issues. And sometimes you have to gather more nuts to help someone you love, whether you need more or not.
*Peeks* Have you put those darn sheets back on your bed yet? Don't make me hitchike all the way up through 5.5 states just to come and beat you for not making your bed... Yeah right. Who am I kidding? I'd end up making it for you. *Hangs head* Some intimidator I turned out to be...
|
|
crowsrlaughin
Starbound Butterfly
.Welcome to the Machine.
Posts: 155
|
Post by crowsrlaughin on Oct 28, 2005 5:07:36 GMT -5
You've help alot on the manner. Whenever I talk to you about stuff I feel alot better about myself. That someone will listen and not automatically judge me for an a.s.s hole.
As for anger issues, baah I just need to get over it and move on I guess.
As for the friend, I have no idea. I'm gonna talk to one of our mutual friends tomorrow about it. See what she thinks about it all.
And as for my bed, yes deary, I finally made my bed. But you can help me re-make it! ;D Oh ho ho! Crazy as a fox! XD
|
|
|
Post by Alexandrea on Oct 28, 2005 11:33:03 GMT -5
as far as making the bed goes...I haven't had sheets on my bed since...oh god...6months or so...I took them off to wash them and never put them back on...lol I am a goober.
Well I was going to offer advice and comfort, but that job was already done here. But know if you do want to talk about anything I am free...pretty much always...I have no life *giggles* anwyay *hugs*
~the Birdwing Butterfly~
|
|
|
|
Post by Gibby on Oct 28, 2005 15:47:51 GMT -5
I can relate to your issue regarding your friend. One of my best friends, and currently my roommate, is dating this guy that I do not like at all. I don't like the way he treats her, or the way she acts around him. And it's hard, because we have been best friends for a few years. It kills me to see her like this, because I know that she isn't truly happy nor is it what she wants in the long run. She's using it to escape other problems. And, like you, I'm a non-confronter....I had confrontations, I hate when people don't like me.
Which is why it was super hard for me to confront her about it. But I did it, because I knew it needed to be done, and I couldn't just stand there and watch her do it without saying anything. So I talked to her about it, actually many times since then. She listened to what I had to say, but didn't change anything. And yes, she is an adult too,...but I just couldn't turn my back on her, leaving her to do whatever she wanted ,even though it wasn't good for her. I'm just not like that.
I'm reminded of a quote from Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone movie, "It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to your enemies, but a great deal more to stand up to your friends." And it is true. But here is my theory. If they are your friend, they aren't going to hate you for being concerned (I thought my friend was going to hate me, but she doesn't at all.) And even if you still can't do it, then I highly encourage you to talk to your mutual friend about it,...or maybe talk to her about it together? I don't know,...but Good Luck ~huggles~ It's a hard position to be in.
|
|
Hallie
Starbound Butterfly
Life's Oxymoron
Posts: 205
|
Post by Hallie on Oct 28, 2005 17:11:40 GMT -5
Sheets are indeed overrated. I am of the opinion that sheets are entirely optional... but that said, I actually strip my sheets every week or sooner. I'm addicted to the clean sheet smell. LOL
And Crows, hunnie.... I'm glad to be here for you. You've helped me more than you know... at least I know I'm not good at showing it. So I'm only too happy to smother you in friendly goodness as often as I can.
I do wish you luck with your friend. I'm rootin' for you, and will be here if you need a pep talk or a post-confrontation calming down.
Gibby, I'm rootin' for your friend, too. I know how hard it can be to see friends in situations you don't condone or know aren't healthy.
*Perks brow at Serpi* Crazy as a fox, eh? I'm not gonna touch that one with a 10ft pole. *Snuggles*
|
|
crowsrlaughin
Starbound Butterfly
.Welcome to the Machine.
Posts: 155
|
Post by crowsrlaughin on Oct 28, 2005 18:11:16 GMT -5
It's very hard to confront you'r friends about anything. I had this problem before with a friend of mine, she just wsa self righteous and into her self. Sometimes I wondered how she could see with her head so far up her arse. One time we went to the mall together, usually I de-test the mall with a passion unless were gonna do something outrageous there like the time me and my friends went and played guitar and song about people who walked by. Hey we made 5 bucks!
But back to this friend, we go to the mall and she goes into a salon to make an appointment, sure thats cool. So she goes in and her fathers girlfriend is there. So what does she tell her to do? Get it right now, WHILE I'm standing right beside her. So she does it. I end up sitting in that chair not one hour, but two hours. TWO HOURS AND LIKE 45 MINUTES. Christ almighty. I was pretty pissed off, but I didn't say anything. So she goes to dad's girlfriends house then afterwards. We go in, and there is only one chair left. Naturally if it was me in MY home I would offer it to the guest. What do they do? They all sit down and I was left standing for a half hour while the chit-chatted and I just stood there. I was so effin' mad. I mean mad like mad. But still, did I say anything? Nope. I just shrugged it off and brooded quietly for those 30 minutes. I know 30 minutes doesnt sound a lot but standing, for me, it is.
So then we go to her house. I brought American Werewolf In London to watch. I put it in, and she "fell asleep" like 10 minutes into the film. So I took it off then she got up and said "Wanna watch some of my Buffy epsidoes...?" I hate buffy. (sorry buffy fans, I like my vampires raw and evil) So... I'm like "Whatev" and rolled over and watched for five minutes and forced myself to just go to sleep cause I could just go home tomorrow. Errgghh... and another time she had her boyfriend over and their smoozing in the bed, I was like wtf? So I got up and walked out, told them I was goin' home. Just got fed up and wrote something about it and then she found out and we just got in a fib-fab fight online and stopped talking ever since.
I still don't know if maybe it was my fault, or I over reacted. I don't know. But my two best-friends never got along really. I don't know blah. Just aggrivates me, I don't have a lot of friends around here to begun with, god only knows I can't handle loosing anymore. -___-"
We'll see.
|
|
Hallie
Starbound Butterfly
Life's Oxymoron
Posts: 205
|
Post by Hallie on Oct 28, 2005 19:15:59 GMT -5
It seems to me that that "friend" didn't appreciate your friendship in the slightest. Of course, I don't know the entire situation, but from what I've read in that post, she didn't care about you or your feelings... and that's not a friend. Friendships like that are unhealthy.
As I see it, you did the right thing... though I personally wouldn't have kept my mouth shut during the whole Mall ordeal, nor the father's girlfriend ordeal... And The boyfriend ordeal was just wrong.
Now, depending on what you wrote about it and who saw it, that's another story. There's a difference between leaving a situation and writing to dissolve your anger, and writing to spread your anger toward your friend... But, as I don't know what you wrote, I can't see anything that would make the absolved relationship your fault. No, not in the least.
This is really making me want to move to Pennsylvania so I can be near you... I think you'd be fun to hang out with. *Cuddles and cheeky kisses*
|
|
|
Post by Serena Serenity on Nov 8, 2005 2:52:52 GMT -5
Hm........ *ponders both situations* I don't know if I would have the guts to say anything either. Then again, I'm the person who lets people walk all over them. Ask Hallie, considering who I was with for five years. *falls over and says no more on that* Anyhow, I hope it all workks out hun. I'd make a road trip for ya, but........ I have no car and Pennsylvania is so far away........ that would be a loooooooong walk. Granted I would probably do it, though hitchhike most of it............ *begins to plot and ponder, then shakes her head* Nope, can't. Hallie would kill me with that cast iron skillet of her's and I would let her. lol
|
|