|
|
Post by PandieCandii on Oct 26, 2005 14:45:31 GMT -5
~*~this reply has been deleated by Candii-Lynn~*~
|
|
|
|
Post by Alexandrea on Oct 27, 2005 9:29:11 GMT -5
that is a perdicament. I am sorry sweety, I really am. In my opinion, I say you atleast give it a go. A visit to make sure. If not then it will be one of those "If you do not do it then you'll regret it!" things. I mean, what if things do work out? And what if they don't. If they do not work out then sure, there will be lots of heartache, lots of pain. But if it does not work out then as sad as it is to say, it was not meant to be. But what if it does work out? Would you give up that opportunity because you are afraid of pain? Pain hurts, sure. But I would risk the pain at a chance of a happy ending...or atleast a good relationship for however long it lasts. That is just my opinion
*hugs*
~The Birdwing Butterfly~
|
|
|
|
Post by Barbed Wire Butterfly on Oct 30, 2005 17:55:48 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]Wow, I'm seeing sooo many shades of red right now.
I always thought it'd be easy to say whatever was on my mind. Well this time I can't. Why? I've always been able to tell everyone what I've thought. Whether it was pervertedly blunt or just downright mean. Well... How do you tell a friend they're being a skank? Everytime she's around any male. She goes into "oh look at me!"
She is prettier then me. I'll be the first person in line to tell anyone that. And it makes me want to throw up. For instance we were sitting around and talking. A male friend shows up, and she's all "Oh Conn'r look at this picture of me in spandex..." And then after pulling it out for him, she points and is all like.. look at my tight musclar behind. I wanted to run away. I wanted to beat the crap outta her. Conner left..and Peter showed up. Ok.. this one is who I'd consider mine..and alot of other friends consider him ...taken. He knows. He admits to loving me. So it's kinda hurtful to watch him come around and her be all over him. She flaunts it at him. Then she's like ..Peter..PETER..look at my body.. .. Urgh... What the hell am I supposed to do, when there isn't a male around she's the nicest person. When guys show up, I'm ignored. And the thing that hurts the worse. She doesn't let me forget that I have a kid when guys are talking to me....What the hell do I do?! Really?! Can I go off on her and it not be bad on my part?! Or do I silently shoot daggers while she puts her moves all over the one I love?![/glow]
|
|
Hallie
Starbound Butterfly
Life's Oxymoron
Posts: 205
|
Post by Hallie on Oct 30, 2005 19:24:53 GMT -5
Have you ever thought of letting her read this thread? If not or if that is not an option, perhaps just take her away from everyone and have a calm talk with her... bring someone else that you both trust to mediate if you feel it necessary... someone who can calm the both of you down should the talk become heated. Make them bring a bucket of ice water if you have to... But, if she's a friend, she should be like "Oh... I'm sorry, I didn't realize" and back off. I've actually had this happen once or twice... (by the same person) and she and I are still good friends. She just didn't realize she was hurting me... or her own image. But I'll warn you, it took two fistfights before she'd admit there were issues. I just hope your friend isn't that strong willed.
Sorry if I'm being a bit too frank here. I just find it hard to sugar coat things for other people. And those little white lies that people often use to soften the blows of bad news? I've not learned those yet... My apologies.
|
|
|
|
Post by Barbed Wire Butterfly on Oct 30, 2005 22:26:40 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]*Smirk...* Love, don't appologize... I really like frankness. It's something the world needs more of...I think I will invite her to read this thread. if it does, evolve into a spat or an all out war so be it. I discovered earlier that I can't take it anymore. I just can't. *huggles* thanks however for listening to me rant^-^ feels good to have a place for it you know?...I really love this site...[/glow]
|
|
|
|
Post by PandieCandii on Nov 7, 2005 23:57:11 GMT -5
~*~this reply has been deleated by Candii-Lynn~*~
|
|
|
|
Post by Serena Serenity on Nov 8, 2005 3:49:07 GMT -5
Yeah, this is late, but I did want to say something. I used to be like that actually. It helped with my depression and the constant hating of myself because people were paying attention to me. Good or bad. I don't do it anymore, but yeah I feel horrible about it now. Then I didn't care, it was better then cutting myself and trying to commit suicide and I was looking for some form of out. *shrugs* That probably isn't the case with her, I don't know. Just letting you know that it's an addicting thing.
|
|
|
|
Post by Barbed Wire Butterfly on Nov 8, 2005 17:21:41 GMT -5
[glow=red,2,300]You know...I hate hiding from people. I hate holding things in. Yet I do it every time I turn around. I never tell anyone how I feel..mostly because if it's not going to benefit them. I don't wish to utter it. I myself have been a flirty person...I don't know if I'm the one Cands is referrring to or not. .. I know I've changed from who I once was. Yet I find myself facing the same problems. ...I've been chasing Peter for almost 6 years. Trying to make myself to him be all he needed. Sitting up late last night. I realized. No matter what I do.. I'll never be good enough. Had as I earlier posted gone to see him, I would have only hurt myself more. He would be the type to love in private. But later infront of people, I'd be the last on his mind. Too many nights have I woke up with tears, because before I went to sleep, I was trying to find my feelings.
Last night, going without sleep and sitting on my front porch rocking my baby girl to sleep...I realized something even worse. I've been to scared to even take a chance with someone new. I was too scared to tell him everything. I thought he'd stop talking to me or find me stupid. It doesn't justify what I've done....by a long shot. I watched cars drive by. And with everyone of them I sent thoughts of Peter on the goodbye. I want nothing to do with him. As he wishes. He can be the scary, depressed person who claims to have no feelings, without me. I can't do it anymore. We weren't together.. He never asked me out. I never asked him.. Yet I still felt the compulsion to stick with him. Not anymore. I won't let him walk all over me.
This part is hardest of all. ...I hurt Owen.. Without even trying to. I didn't tell him about Peter because I didn't want him to leave me. To stop talking to me. I didn't t ell him how I felt because I was too d**n scared of myself. I couldn't tell him I was struggling because I didn't know how to handle it. I want you all to read and see that I am sorry...Owen...I'm sorry.. and I know those words don't fix it. I know they don't.
I want you, Owen, to know that you are special. You are a wonderful guy and don't let anyone tell you different. I did tell you how I felt. Those statements weren't false. I didn't think you were serious in your feelins towards me because well, when we were playing 21 questions, I asked you if you wanted kids...and you said someday...I took that into considerations as to what to do...so it kept me at bay ..I ask you..for all the world to see...
..Forgive me... I don't know what I'm doing..I don't know what to do..the history is there between him and I..and I don't want to lose you. I like you. Honestly. And should have never flirted. Please...don't hate me....
Am I right in asking this? do I have the right to even speak such things? Or am I just someone who should shut the hell up??[/glow]
|
|
Pixie
Starbound Butterfly
faith and trust and pixie dust
Posts: 335
|
Post by Pixie on Nov 8, 2005 17:30:37 GMT -5
I think it is very brave of you to be so honest in such a public setting-no matter how it turns out you have taken a step forward*hugs tightly* Brava!
|
|
|
|
Post by Serena Serenity on Nov 8, 2005 23:39:46 GMT -5
I'm proud of you hun. You did more then I could have ever done. I run from such things. Maybe I'm chicken, but thats just who I am. *snugs* Anyhow, I'm very proud of you.
|
|
