Post by chrissylacat on Feb 6, 2006 22:47:26 GMT -5
When you realize your self worth, did it please you. Or did it sicken you? Make you want to lock youself away from everyone?
Am I so plain and forgettable that one moment you can be my best-friend, then the i nstant someone more popular, more.. attactive, more creativity comes along. You forget me, and leave me in the dark?
Do people even realize how they make others feel when they don't speak to them, or bush them aside for something else? It hurts, unlike any physicial pain could deal. The heart is such a powerful weapon to use against someone. When you only wish to help others and be there for your friends, only to be replaced and ignored.
So what do you say when those that ignored you for days on end, suddenly come to you with their problems and pains? I wish I could push them away, like they do me. I should care and be cold and unloving. Should I ignore them, and just be alone? Alone like I am every day, sitting and waiting for someone to just say hello.... Unfortunately I can't. And I do my best to help them. But it only backfires. The next day they're right back to ignoring me and I'm right back to hurting. So I am the used.
But what hurts more is that, Im over-looking those and hurting those that don't act that way to me. Even if it's one or two people. They tell I'm important. They hug me, love for who I am. They are the ones that support me and keep me going every day. So how do you balance the two? How do you keep from hurting those that would never hurt you, because of those that use you over and over?
A question, I have yet to figure out.
Am I so plain and forgettable that one moment you can be my best-friend, then the i nstant someone more popular, more.. attactive, more creativity comes along. You forget me, and leave me in the dark?
Do people even realize how they make others feel when they don't speak to them, or bush them aside for something else? It hurts, unlike any physicial pain could deal. The heart is such a powerful weapon to use against someone. When you only wish to help others and be there for your friends, only to be replaced and ignored.
So what do you say when those that ignored you for days on end, suddenly come to you with their problems and pains? I wish I could push them away, like they do me. I should care and be cold and unloving. Should I ignore them, and just be alone? Alone like I am every day, sitting and waiting for someone to just say hello.... Unfortunately I can't. And I do my best to help them. But it only backfires. The next day they're right back to ignoring me and I'm right back to hurting. So I am the used.
But what hurts more is that, Im over-looking those and hurting those that don't act that way to me. Even if it's one or two people. They tell I'm important. They hug me, love for who I am. They are the ones that support me and keep me going every day. So how do you balance the two? How do you keep from hurting those that would never hurt you, because of those that use you over and over?
A question, I have yet to figure out.
