Post by crowsrlaughin on Oct 31, 2005 14:15:57 GMT -5
I don't really know where to put this, so I'm decieding here. But if not move it.
I'm feeling really sour right now, bitter, and like really annoyed too. I don't know, sometimes I look out the window and I think maybe I should go outside like normal people. But honestly there is NOTHING here. I'm out in the middle of nowhere with no working car.
And I just get really lonely.
My friends live about half hour to two hours away. And there is no way in chance I'm gonna walk along the highway unless I'm feelin' squirrely and I got a death wish.
But I sit here all week by myself, all day.. all night. There is nothing really here, not to mention I get social aniexty whenever I go out. Sometimes I can't even order things on the phone cause I just get panicky. I'm like in a death trap. Created my own prision.
But theres nothing outside. Nothing. And it's too cold. And I still need a god d**n job but their aint nothing up here. I put out resume's and applications, and not one d**n thing. Not one call back.
Sometimes I feel like I got a d**n diease or something. Like my skin is decaying off, why the hell won't anyone hire me.
I don't know, I can't even keep this writing in order. Point I guess, is I'm feeling straight up lonely. And there really isn't a way for anyone to fix it. But I guess I wanted to pine and get it out.
Otherwise I'd just lay in bed all day, thinking. And if anything if I think too much I lose myself. And then I just feel worse than I did before I started to think. So I guess I just wanted to whine, and get it out for a little so I can think about something else...
I'm feeling really sour right now, bitter, and like really annoyed too. I don't know, sometimes I look out the window and I think maybe I should go outside like normal people. But honestly there is NOTHING here. I'm out in the middle of nowhere with no working car.
And I just get really lonely.
My friends live about half hour to two hours away. And there is no way in chance I'm gonna walk along the highway unless I'm feelin' squirrely and I got a death wish.
But I sit here all week by myself, all day.. all night. There is nothing really here, not to mention I get social aniexty whenever I go out. Sometimes I can't even order things on the phone cause I just get panicky. I'm like in a death trap. Created my own prision.
But theres nothing outside. Nothing. And it's too cold. And I still need a god d**n job but their aint nothing up here. I put out resume's and applications, and not one d**n thing. Not one call back.
Sometimes I feel like I got a d**n diease or something. Like my skin is decaying off, why the hell won't anyone hire me.
I don't know, I can't even keep this writing in order. Point I guess, is I'm feeling straight up lonely. And there really isn't a way for anyone to fix it. But I guess I wanted to pine and get it out.
Otherwise I'd just lay in bed all day, thinking. And if anything if I think too much I lose myself. And then I just feel worse than I did before I started to think. So I guess I just wanted to whine, and get it out for a little so I can think about something else...
