My Live Journal

[Hallie]

Yeah, I know it would be better or easier for me to post my thoughts here. But, sometimes there are things that I don't want up there that I might post here... otherwise, why make myself miserable twice by trying to post twice? Anyways, here is my livejournal addy, and maybe I'll actually update it soon. *Chuckles* The new update should at least be somewhat sunny... At least what I have of it is... Yes... I have started, saved and forgotten about my lj update... what of it?! *L*

www.livejournal.com/users/aryadna/

[Hallie]

I saw this in Twice Frozen Heart's Journal, so thought I'd make her start a trend... Not to mention... I was BORED...


Name: Jessica Mae Montgomery
Birthday: September 3, 1979
Birthplace: Patuxent River, Maryland
Current Location: Jacksonville, Florida
Eye Color: Brown almost black
Hair Color: Naturally, a medium brown with auburn highlights
Height: 5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right Handed
Your Heritage: Mix of Irish, Scottish, English and German
The Shoes You Wore Today: None
Your Weakness: Chocolate and Pretty eyes
Your Fears: Being attacked, Spiders... Other bugs...
Your Perfect Pizza: Cheese, light pepperoni and light mushrooms
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Suck it up and actually file for disability... with or without someone to force me to go...
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: o.O LOL LMAO
Thoughts First Waking Up: "d**n, my face hurts." What? You've never fallen asleep on YOUR keyboard?!
Your Best Physical Feature: My um...Hair? And...err... my Eyes...?
Your Bedtime: When I finally pass out. (Insomniac.)
Your Most Missed Memory: When I actually had friends that wanted my attention.... Not including internet friends.
Pepsi or Coke: Mountain Dew...
McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds
Single or Group Dates: Singles.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton. No lemon.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino
Do you Smoke: Not anymore.
Do you Swear: Yes. All the time.
Do you Sing: Unfortunately.
Do you Shower Daily: Yep, sometimes twice a day.
Have you Been in Love: Not including my son? Once... never again.
Do you want to go to College: Yes.
Do you want to get Married: If a man could tolerate me long enough....
Do you believe in yourself: No.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Only when I'm prego.
Do you think you are Attractive: I wish.
Are you a Health Freak: Nope.
Do you get along with your Parents: Only my mom...when she's not psycho.
Do you like Thunderstorms: They uh...excite me!
Do you play an Instrument: Yes, the clarinet, alto sax, and the baritone.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: NO
In the past month have you Smoked: Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Uhm... Do prescriptions count? Risperdal, Ativan, Nasicort, and Advair.
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Yes.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Hell no!
In the past month have you been on Stage: Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped: Nope, would have to be with someone first...
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Another Hell no.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Yes.
Ever been Drunk: Yes...
Ever been called a Tease: Yes.
Ever been Beaten up: Yes, and I laughed the whole time... had bruises everywhere, and a cracked rib.
Ever Shoplifted: Quite a few times.
How do you want to Die: In my sleep.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Something.
What country would you most like to Visit: Australia.
~In a Boy/Girl..~
Favorite Eye Color: Green.
Favorite Hair Color: Dark or Red.
Short or Long Hair: Medium to long.
Height: Taller than me.
Weight: If it's less then me, I don't want to know...
Best Clothing Style: Easily removable?
Number of Drugs I have taken: Other than prescriptions, 4.
Number of CDs I own: over 200.
Number of Piercings: My earlobes, cartilage and tongue. so. 6?
Number of Tattoos: 1. Zodiac Symbols in circle on upper left arm.
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many to really count... but biggest is going into Surgical Technology instead of computer courses or a formal college. I'm still paying for a class that I will never again be allowed to use, as I'm not allowed to work in that field with the mental issues that I have... would -you- want someone unstable feeling around inside -your- body while the doctor's not looking?


For those of you who want to put this in your journal and hate coding, here's the list without answers and with codes:

[b]Name:[/b]
[b]Birthday:[/b]
[b]Birthplace:[/b]
[b]Current Location:[/b]
[b]Eye Color:[/b]
[b]Hair Color:[/b]
[b]Height:[/b]
[b]Right Handed or Left Handed:[/b]
[b]Your Heritage:[/b]
[b]The Shoes You Wore Today:[/b]
[b]Your Weakness:[/b]
[b]Your Fears:[/b]
[b]Your Perfect Pizza:[/b]
[b]Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:[/b]
[b]Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:[/b]
[b]Thoughts First Waking Up:[/b]
[b]Your Best Physical Feature:[/b]
[b]Your Bedtime:[/b]
[b]Your Most Missed Memory:[/b]
[b]Pepsi or Coke:[/b]
[b]McDonalds or Burger King:[/b]
[b]Single or Group Dates:[/b]
[b]Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:[/b]
[b]Chocolate or Vanilla:[/b]
[b]Cappuccino or Coffee:[/b]
[b]Do you Smoke:[/b]
[b]Do you Swear:[/b]
[b]Do you Sing:[/b]
[b]Do you Shower Daily:[/b]
[b]Have you Been in Love:[/b]
[b]Do you want to go to College:[/b]
[b]Do you want to get Married:[/b]
[b]Do you believe in yourself:[/b]
[b]Do you get Motion Sickness:[/b]
[b]Do you think you are Attractive:[/b]
[b]Are you a Health Freak:[/b]
[b]Do you get along with your Parents:[/b]
[b]Do you like Thunderstorms:[/b]
[b]Do you play an Instrument:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you Smoked:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you been on Drugs:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you gone on a Date:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you gone to a Mall:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you eaten Sushi:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you been on Stage:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you been Dumped:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:[/b]
[b]In the past month have you Stolen Anything:[/b]
[b]Ever been Drunk:[/b]
[b]Ever been called a Tease:[/b]
[b]Ever been Beaten up:[/b]
[b]Ever Shoplifted:[/b]
[b]How do you want to Die:[/b]
[b]What do you want to be when you Grow Up:[/b]
[b]What country would you most like to Visit:[/b]
~In a Boy/Girl..~
[b]Favorite Eye Color:[/b]
[b]Favorite Hair Color:[/b]
[b]Short or Long Hair:[/b]
[b]Height:[/b]
[b]Weight:[/b]
[b]Best Clothing Style:[/b]
[b]Number of Drugs I have taken:[/b]
[b]Number of CDs I own:[/b]
[b]Number of Piercings:[/b]
[b]Number of Tattoos:[/b]
[b]Number of things in my Past I Regret:[/b]


[Hallie]

Well, I've been gone awhile. Not gone as in any kind of permanent sense or psychological sense... but gone from the boards. I started to feel a bit too vulnerable than I thought I would. At first, when I was posting everything, it made me feel better. It made me feel awesome that everyone was so eager to help and post their advice and some were just as eager to hear what I had to say.

Some people have attributed my hiatus to a dislike of a member here, or some-such. I am here to dispel that rumor. I was just feeling a bit too naked and actually thinking about deleting every one of my posts just to make the feeling go away. I haven't told anyone this, and the one person I did tell knows the -full- story, but I shall spare you the stupidity of the rest.

I'm sorry if I made anyone feel neglected in my absence. I promise that it was not intentional. I'll be a bit more active from now on... I suppose I just felt that since all of my problems were aired, that I didn't have anything else to offer... I'll try to keep in mind that not everything is about me... which I sometimes tend to forget, and remain here, as was first intended, as a shoulder to cry on and a listening ear.

[Pixie]

if we are truly your friends then we must accept that at times you or anyone else here may need time and space away from here-and we will be here when you are ready to come back welcoming you with open arms*hugs tightly*

[Hallie]

I never know what to put in here. I really don't... but there is something that I have to get off my chest, and I was always told to be brutally honest on these boards, so I will be.

As much as I love everyone here, and as much as I care, there are two people that constantly give me panic attacks because it seems as if they are following me around, not only here, but in other places. I've been hurt before, so I suppose its a smothering feeling of being stalked. I don't know whether to leave the boards because of it, or to just try and swallow the feeling and ignore the two. I suppose I'll figure it out eventually... *Shivers*

[Pixie]

*hugs gently and slips away*I love you but I do not wish to make you uncomfortable-I shall stay in my corner

[Gibby]

~big hugs~ Don't leave. ~grabs on to your ankles like a little kid, so you can't walk away~ Well, I mean, leave if you want to, or if it will stop the panic attacks...but,...don't leave.....what good would that do?

[Alexandrea]

Oh sweety, if you have to leave, then do so. Though to be honest i would love it if you would stay here. My suggestion is to perhaps talk to these people, prefferably on messenger and just mention that you feel a little overwhelmed and you would appreciate them backing off, everyone backing off a bit. Or something like that, I don't know. Just do what you have to do hun. If that means that you have to leave this place then so be it, we will miss you greatly, if not then party over here! lol *hugs*

Message me or something if you EVER need anything, okay hun?

[Hallie]

Its just so overwhelming... Its hard. I don't want to be mean, but its making me really uncomfortable.. and I don't think I can face them in messenger anymore. I don't want to leave. I like this place. I really do... but at the same time, some of the suggestive remarks and other things just make me feel like I'm being suffocated.

Anyway... *Pokes Gibby* My ankles are not going anywhere yet, so you may let go... and thanks Alex for your words of encouragement. We'll see what happens...

[Hallie]

I'm... I'm glad I'm loved? *Hides kneecaps an...* OOF! *Thud* ow

[wyndwalker]

DUR, of course ye are....
and I try to do my part to make ya feel it every single day.

....sorry 'bout the kneecaps, though. Need a ride to OPMC?

[Alexandrea]

If you like you can talk to me and I'll talk to them, ask them to settle down slightly and to back off a little bit and everything. *huggles* anything to help you, hun.

[Hallie]

*Snugs Kas and nods* Yes. Come pick me up right away. Bring some Wendy's with you, too. *Winks and laughs*

Alex... thanks... Might do that.

[Gibby]

~lets go of her ankles~ Alright......I guess....~still keeps her eyes on Hallie as she walks away~ Only if you promise you aren't going anywhere.....I have my eye on you. ~smiles and huggles~

[Hallie]

*Giggles and hugs* I'm not going anywhere. Kas would murder me, and Zaiah would prolly disown me... then there's Serena... *Reads through the rest of the list...* Yeah, I'm staying... for now... *Shifty eyes*

[Hallie]

*Hides under sofa with feet poking out* If I close my eyes, you can't see me... >.> *Gigglewinks*

[Barbed Wire Butterfly]

[glow=red,2,300]I know I do not post here really all that much. But...Ary....I like you. You're cool. And I know coming from a kid it doesn't sound so great. but there are qualities to look for in people. I don't look for perfection..because I know perfection is in the eye of the beholder. I look for people who Care From what I've read here you care alot and are willing to help. ^-^ *Offers Hugs BIG hugs* If you ever need to talk on yahoo or msn.. I'm

[e-mail]

and

Tamara2159

That goes for anyone. I'm always willing to read from you. I'm always willing to try to cheer you up or get you to...laugh.[/glow]