Post by crowsrlaughin on Oct 27, 2005 3:50:02 GMT -5
So what can I say? I feel 50 sometimes, and other times I feel I have the mentality of a child. I'm alone most of the days and I have an addiction to the internet. I have an unhealthy obession with an actor, and perhaps thats creepy but it's what keeps me happy.
Not everyone had stayed in my life but I consider these inatimate objects, movies, pictures. An actor thats has no idea of my existence to have "been their through it all". But somehow this works in my life.
I don't have a lot of friends. I'm glad to be out of HS cause I hated almost everyday of it. I like to smile and make people laugh, more so then tending to myself. I can come off careless, cold, and callous to some people, other I seem sensitve and weak. I don't understand these things, and I contradict myself, contrast like black and white.
If this makes no sense I apologize because it's almost 5 AM. Did I mention I have troubles sleeping?
I wake up feeling diguisted that I woke up, and then half my day is between energetic bursts of energy to bother anyone to being a broody selfish child. I feel like a failure half the time because half the time I don't remember anything from school. I don't go to college, I have no ambitions to get up out of this chair. I don't aspire for anything in life, cause I don't expect anything from life. I am still unemployed. I do not have my own car now. I live with my parents now. I haven't called my father since August. My best friend is addicted to a video game that she quit her job to play. My other friend is always depressive and complains about his girlfriends, I had stopped picking up my phone now. I left him stranded. My other best friend, doesn't even know that I am depressive. I don't like to see her sad. I regret pushing my ex-best friend away from me, I tend to miss her company. Sometimes I think everything was my fault.
Besides all that I'm a fun-loving depressive and I like cappuccinos, and ad-libbing movies.
Not everyone had stayed in my life but I consider these inatimate objects, movies, pictures. An actor thats has no idea of my existence to have "been their through it all". But somehow this works in my life.
I don't have a lot of friends. I'm glad to be out of HS cause I hated almost everyday of it. I like to smile and make people laugh, more so then tending to myself. I can come off careless, cold, and callous to some people, other I seem sensitve and weak. I don't understand these things, and I contradict myself, contrast like black and white.
If this makes no sense I apologize because it's almost 5 AM. Did I mention I have troubles sleeping?
I wake up feeling diguisted that I woke up, and then half my day is between energetic bursts of energy to bother anyone to being a broody selfish child. I feel like a failure half the time because half the time I don't remember anything from school. I don't go to college, I have no ambitions to get up out of this chair. I don't aspire for anything in life, cause I don't expect anything from life. I am still unemployed. I do not have my own car now. I live with my parents now. I haven't called my father since August. My best friend is addicted to a video game that she quit her job to play. My other friend is always depressive and complains about his girlfriends, I had stopped picking up my phone now. I left him stranded. My other best friend, doesn't even know that I am depressive. I don't like to see her sad. I regret pushing my ex-best friend away from me, I tend to miss her company. Sometimes I think everything was my fault.
Besides all that I'm a fun-loving depressive and I like cappuccinos, and ad-libbing movies.
Dohhh! *smacks head* Course I know you. XP
Of course you do Dalrin...*chuckles* And once again welcome to the forum
